An Interesting TV Show, Healthy Conversations And Other Stuff

[chelseajmunoz]

In the last blog entry that I'd written Friday I forgot to mention what the show Marvel's Jessica Jones is about: said show is about a woman who's a Private Investigator (PI). She's had traumatic experiences in her life and she's haunted by those experiences through having PTSD. I have to say that this show is so awesome to me because of the way the show's writer portrays the main Character Jessica Jones's PTSD. Like, the show's writer portrays Jessica Jones's PTSD accurately to how PTSD is for people in real life. As you all may know I can speak from personal experience on how PTSD actually is in real life. The way Jessica Jones has flashbacks for example, is how PTSD is in real life. It's like one minute a person with PTSD can be fine and the next minute the same person has PTSD that can cause him or her to become involved in a flashback in every sense. So instead of being in the present the person is in his or her mind, feeling like he or she is reliving whatever experience the flashback is showing the person. It's intense in an unpleasant way. Even that's putting it mildly though. In addition to Jessica Jones having PTSD she's also a superhero. However that's the only non-human aspect to the show. At least that I've seen so far. Another aspect of Marvel's Jessica Jones that I love though is the fact that the show has multiple lesbian scenes. I love that said show portrays lesbian scenes in a healthy way rather than in a homophobic way. Come to think of it though there are other Netflix original shows that have scenes with characters that are gay in them. It's awesome! An hour or so after I'd written my last blog entry Friday I rewatched episode two of Marvel's Jessica Jones because I wanted to make sure that I hadn't missed anything the first time I'd watched that particular episode of the show. Fortunately I hadn't actually missed anything in the second episode of the show. Shortly after I'd watched episode two of season one of Marvel's Jessica Jones I took a shower. The shower that a friend of mine has really makes me miss the shower I'd gotten installed at my old apartment in San Antonio Texas. The shower that I'd had installed at my old apartment in San Antonio Texas was a walk-in shower with handlebars all around the entire shower with the exception of where the shower curtain hung. The walk-in shower also had a seat that was built into a wall of said walk-in shower. That particular shower increased my independence tremendously. I'd originally gotten the idea to ask my then insurance company to pay for a walk-in shower to be installed at my then apartment when I was in Little Rock Arkansas last year attending World Services for the Blind (WSB). Because when I was a student at WSB the shower that was in my room at the school was a walk-in shower that had handlebars all around the shower as well as a seat that was built into a wall of the shower. So after I'd seen how using a walk-in shower helped me be more mobile I knew exactly what I'd need to tell my then insurance company to make that particular company pay for me to get a walk-in shower installed in my then apartment. Although the process for me to actually have the walk-in shower installed took what seemed like forever. If my memory serves correctly the walk-in shower was installed in my then apartment in late November of last year. Then I moved elsewhere a few months later. So while I enjoyed having the walk-in shower for the short amount of time that I'd had something so life-changing I still really miss said walk-in shower. So anyway the friend's shower that I currently use in the new state is very different from the walk-in shower at my old apartment. Said friend's shower is a tub shower (which is also the kind of shower that used to be at my old apartment prior to me having the walk-in shower installed). My friend's tub shower has a small handlebar that I can use to hold onto when I get into and out of the shower. It isn't my ideal situation by any means but I make the most of whatever it is that's available to me. Fortunately though the friend whose shower I use has a shower chair for me that stays in the shower all the time. One thing that I can't stand about my friend's tub shower though is the fact that there's only one water heater around here so sometimes there's no hot water for people to shower with. Fortunately I haven't had that particular experience myself yet. I've come close to having said experience but I say a silent prayer every time I shower that I won't have to ever shower with cold water. I hope that I don't jinx things in writing about the hot water verses cold water in the showers at this particular place though because I think showering in cold water would be an awful experience for me. In saying that showering in cold water would likely be an awful experience for me what I mean is that if I showered with cold water my body would probably freeze up so much that it would be difficult for me to complete the tasks of washing my hair and washing my body. Writing about this particular thing though has me hoping really hard that when I move to my own place I won't have to deal with only one water heater as I do right now. Because having to deal with only one water heater fucking sucks!! I wouldn't encourage anyone to seek out this particular experience. And if anyone has had a similar experience as I have regarding having only one water heater please share your experience in the comment section of this blog entry. A little while after I'd gotten out of the shower a friend and I talked with one another about one of the characters in Marvel's Jessica Jones. The character my friend and I talked about is a bad guy in the show whose power is mind control. Like, this asshole can literally make people want to do whatever he tells him or her to do immediately after he tells him or her to do whatever said thing happens to be. Like, this guy tells someone to jump off a building and the person he tells to jump off of a building obeys his command. The people he commands to do things always describe that he or she has an intense need to obey this asshole. So a friend and I were talking with one another about what life would be like if he and I could have mind control as a power. I talked about how fucking awesome it would be if my friend and I could tell our shitty parents to leave us alone...then our parents would just never contact us again because they'd have such an intense need to obey what we told them to do. Oh my god, that would be awesome to have that power because I'd use it for exactly that purpose: to tell both of my parents to leave me the fuck alone. Forever. After my friend and I'd finished that particular discussion with one another the two of us then discussed how each of us defines friendship. My friend defines friendship as his friends being my friends, just because they're his friends. However I define friendship as me really getting to know people and me interacting with those people on a frequent enough basis that I've formed some kind of connection with those people. That being said, I have a lot of acquaintances (people that I've only interacted with a handful of times). Then there are people who I've never met personally that I interact with on social media from time to time. While some people may read this part of this particular blog entry and think that I don't deeply value humanity, I'm writing about my thoughts on this subject because I think an uncommon perspective needs to be heard. I don't value my numerous acquaintances less than I value those people who I'd consider to be my close friends. I simply value my numerous acquaintances differently than I value certain other people. Because each individual relationship that I have with any given person is special to me for its own reasons. For example sometimes the best part of some of my friendships with people is that I connect with them through the traumatic experiences that we've gone through in our lives. Because even though our stories are not necessarily the same as one another's we share the common theme of having been through traumatic experiences. Whereas other friends of mine, I value their friendship because those friends and I share a bond with one another regarding the ways we think about God. Those friends and I sometimes also share our doubts with one another that a higher power does not exist in our world. There are yet other friends I have who give me the ass-kicks I need (when they need to do so). There are acquaintances I have who I occasionally agree with as well as acquaintances I have whose opinions I completely disagree with on many things. Yet I still try to learn from said acquaintances and figure out how I can use their idiocy as a tool in my life. So what I'm trying to say in writing all this is that we choose how we interact with people and how those people have an impact on our lives or not. In the case where a friend of mine was trying to say that I could be friends with his friends, just because they're his friends, I explained to him that I'm not going to reach out to his friends because it makes me feel awkward. Maybe that perspective will change in the future but right now I'm not going to approach people that I only met a time or two because in doing so I'd feel like I was forcing myself upon those people. Now if I were to hang out with those people often enough that I could get to know them as more than acquaintances and those people and I become friends authentically that's a totally different situation. What my friend was talking about in that particular conversation though was that his friends were my friends simply because they were already his friends. This whole conversation came up between him and I because I was saying that I dressed in shorts with a shirt that I think matches those shorts. He then suggested that I have a friend of his who's an acquaintance of mine help me find some warmer clothes to wear. I told him that I was fine with wearing a big jacket if he and I were to go somewhere with one another later that evening. So that's just what I did: when said friend and I went to Walmart later that evening I wore my big jacket for said outing. Even with wearing my big jacket though I still freezed my ass off. Still said friend and I were able to accomplish exactly what we wanted to accomplish which always makes a person feel good. When my friend and I arrived at Walmart the two of us found a cashier so that we could ask said person if he or she'd find someone to help us shop. The lady we'd asked for help though seemed grouchy and my friend and I didn't think she'd actually get us the help we needed. At one point though my friend told me that he was giving Ms. Grouchy dirty looks. I think him giving Ms. Grouchy dirty looks may have worked in our favor because a few minutes later a Walmart employee was by our side ready to help us shop. I was kind of bummed that our shopper was a guy though because I wanted to purchase a bed set for the new bed that a friend of mine is going to make me. In the bed set that i liked the most at Walmart there was a blanket, sheets, pillowcases and some other things that I don't remember. I also purchased some pillows too while my friend and I were at Walmart with one another. The Walmart we'd went to though was a super-Walmart which meant that there was a lot of walking for us to do. All that walking was quite a challenge for me but I made it through the entire store with minimal feelings of my legs feeling tired. It was at the very end when my friend and I were about to pay for the items we'd purchased that I was assertive about the fact that I needed to find a seat quickly. Fortunately there was a McDonald's in that particular Walmart and that's where I went to take a seat. While I was at said McDonald's I bought myself a small order of fries and a Coke. I ordered a small coke but I was given a large Coke. LOL. So anyway as you all can probably imagine when I slept that night, said sleep was amazing! Yesterday evening I went through the mail that I'd received. It turned out that I'd received the proof of income letter that I'd requested from the SSA which means I can keep tomorrow's appointment with the VRC who's in this area. I'm honestly kind of dreading my meeting with the VRC who's in this area just because I don't know what to expect. Like, will he be kind and understanding enough to get me the tools I'll need to be successful? I sure hope so! In going through the mail that I'd received last night I also received something from the Health and Human Services Commission (HHSC) in Texas. The mail that HHSC had sent me was a certificate proving that I've received benefits in Texas before I moved to this new state. I'd also received something from the SSA in Texas notifying me that I'm no longer a part of the Ticket to Work program in Texas. I guess that particular agency has to do formalities for everything. It's kind of annoying. LOL.