An Interesting Battle, A Not-So-Interesting Netflix Show And Other Randomness

[chelseajmunoz]

In the last blog entry that I'd written Saturday I forgot to mention the fact that a friend of mine put bump dots on a few buttons of his microwave. Hopefully I'll have an easier time pressing those particular buttons on his microwave now that those bump dots are on said device. Because before my friend had bump dots on part of his microwave, his microwave was difficult for me to use because of how hard I had to press its buttons. Because given the fact that I have Rheumatoid Arthritis (RA) that sometimes causes me pain I knew having those bump dots on my friend's microwave would likely help my RA not be so painful. Saturday evening I started watching a Netflix original show called Everything Sucks. I'd actually started watching said show with a friend a while back but the two of us quickly decided that Everything Sucks was not that great of a show. What changed for me though was the fact that I read an article online that was written by someone who writes for a lesbian blog. In that particular article that the person had written the lady had said that there were lesbian scenes in the show Everything Sucks. So that's the only reason I'm watching the Netflix original show: because I want to see how said show portrays lesbians and other LGBT people. Yesterday afternoon I sent an email to one of the ladies who used to be one of my therapists when I lived in San Antonio. In the email that I'd sent her I explained to her that I've been having really vivid dreams ever since I've left San Antonio. In the same email I'd sent her I also explained to her that the dreams I've been having are so vivid that I'm unsure whether those dreams are real or whether those dreams are just dreams. In the same email I'd sent her I also told her that the vivid dreams that i've been having are about the family members on my mom's side of the family. In the same email I'd sent her I also explained to her that in the dreams I've been having I tell my mom and her other family members off and in real life I say the things that I'm saying in the dream. When I say the things in real life that I'm saying in the dream though the tone of voice that I tell the family members off in sounds demonic. The way the voice that I speak in sounds is scary to me as well as anyone who hears the voice that I speak in during those vivid dreams. And I wanted to know what one of my old therapists would have to say about those dreams, like why those dreams are even occurring as vividly and continually as they are. A little while after I'd sent that email to one of my old therapists in San Antonio a friend of mine called Ticket Master to see if that particular business was opened on the weekends. It wasn't opened though so my friend then called the actual venue where the Ed Sheeran concert is going to take place. Unfortunately that particular business was closed as well. Shortly after my friend and I'd discovered that neither business we'd wanted to talk to was opened on the weekends I searched for the remote app on my iPhone's app store. With this latest iOS update unfortunately VO doesn't speak aloud how much apps actually cost or whether apps are free. VO used to speak that particular information aloud so it's a damn shame that that's no longer the case. Fortunately when I double-tapped on what I'd thought would be the right remote app though said app was free. Once I'd downloaded said app to my phone a friend of mine told me that that particular app is garbage but that said app occasionally gets the job done that it's supposed to. So it's going to be interesting to see what kinds of things I experience when I use the remote app on my iPhone. A little while after a friend of mine had told me a little bit about how the remote app works on my iPhone I drank some Dr Pepper (a soda that I love the taste of). Me drinking some Dr Pepper sparked an interesting discussion between a friend and I in that my friend pointed out how when I drink soda, drinking soda gives me a bigger belly than I like to have. My friend is right and honestly, before today I hadn't touched soda for a week or so. A little while after I'd drank some Dr Pepper the therapist of mine that I'd sent an email to earlier in the day replied to the email I'd sent her. In the email she'd sent me she said that she definitely thinks that the dreams I've been having about my family members are definitely a reflection of the fact I'm continuing to fully accept the abuse and neglect that I endured at their hands. She encouraged me to continue to let myself be angry at all of my family members whenever that particular emotion pops up for me. She warned me though to also continue to pay attention to the fact that I don't want to let my anger allow me to become destructive in any way. Honestly though I'm not worried about my anger getting out-of-hand because I'm pretty good now at letting myself feel whatever it is I feel at a given time and letting that emotion last however long it needs to last. Another reason that I'm not worried about my anger getting out-of-hand is because I know what it's like to hurt people and I'm not the type of person who goes out of her way to hurt anyone. Even when I'm angry at someone I never think about ways that I could destroy said person. I just acknowledge my anger at him or her then let myself sit with said anger for as long as is necessary. This morning a friend of mine texted me the phone number to the agency that's going to give me my Assistive Technology (AT) evaluation at some point. Once I'd seen that particular agency's contact card on my iPhone I added said contact to my phone. After I'd added said agency's contact information to the contacts in my iPhone I wrote on a friend's FB wall to ask her about how to apply for a scholarship she wants to award to someone who has Hydrocephalus (a condition that means a person has excess water on his or her brain). Because I'd seen said friend post a lot of things on her FB page lately about the fact she wants to give a scholarship to someone who has Hydrocephalus and I thought it might be worth applying for the scholarship that she wants to give out to someone. I then had a conversation with another friend of mine about what the purpose is of scholarships is, considering the fact I'm going to receive financial aid. My friend told me that a person gets scholarships so that he or she could use his or her financial aid money for other things that are related to his or her education. I'm not quite sure what that means exactly though. Throughout the morning I went back and forth between wanting to drink the rest of the Dr Pepper that I'd had from yesterday and not drinking anymore of said drink. Like, I told myself over and over again that since that particular bottle of Dr Pepper was nearly full still I should finish the bottle so that it wouldn't go flat and in turn be wasted. However I ended up putting the Dr Pepper bottle into the refrigerator where the rest of the soda is. It was hard for me to do that because a huge part of me wanted to drink the rest of the Dr Pepper. However when I quickly thought of the fact that soda gives me a big belly which I hate I made a hard decision to put the bottle away. Because I'm not cutting caffeine completely. I'm simply stopping soda in particular. And who knows? Maybe I'll occasionally drink a soda but I doubt it because the thought of getting a big belly from drinking soda is awful enough to make me not want soda ever again. A little while after I'd put the Dr Pepper bottle in the refrigerator where it belongs I watched several episodes of Everything Sucks. I actually finished the entire show. I'm still of the opinion that that particular show was not a great show. The few lesbian scenes that were in the show were a big let down too. I can't imagine Everything Sucks having another season to be honest. Hopefully Netflix agrees with me. LOL. Shortly after I'd watched Everything Sucks in its entirety I received an email at my school email address. When I checked who'd sent me the email it turned out that someone from the college I'm going to be attending had seen my female roommate wanted ad that had been posted at the college. In the email that the lady had sent me she'd wanted to know if I was still looking for a roommate so I immediately replied to her email to let her know that I'd already found a place to live. I then texted the friend of mine who goes to the same college to ask him if he'd see about getting my female roommate wanted ad taken down wherever said female roommate wanted ad is posted at the college. A while after I'd texted said friend of mine to ask for his help in making sure that my female roommate wanted ad gets removed from the college I Googled the name of the agency that's going to do my AT evaluation because I wanted to make sure that the phone number I'd been given by my friend was the correct number for said agency. Because the phone number that I'd been given by my friend for said agency was a cell phone number. At least said number was labeled as a cell phone number on the agency's contact card that my friend had texted me. Fortunately though the number that my friend had given me was a correct number for said agency. In addition to that particular cell number for that particular agency though I also found another number for said agency in my Google search results. So now I have both of those phone numbers for said agency in the phone contact I'd created in my phone for said agency. A little while after I'd edited said agency's contact card in my phone I noticed that a friend of mine who's also friends with the lady who wants to give a scholarship to someone with Hydrocephalus liked what I'd written on Scholarship Giver's FB wall. I then wrote a comment on what I'd written on Scholarship Giver's FB wall saying "Or if anyone else knows how I could apply for this scholarship he or she could tell me too." A little while after I'd posted said comment to Scholarship Giver's FB wall I talked to another friend of mine about doing certain things in moderation. The friend of mine who I'd had said conversation with told me that if I could make the current opened bottle of Dr Pepper last for a few days or if I could even make the current opened Dr Pepper bottle last for a week, either of those options would be better than the option I usually choose which is to drink one bottle of Dr Pepper or other kind of soda a day. And I think that my friend is right about people doing certain things in moderation. It's currently raining in this city and I love when it rains anywhere. I love the sound of the rain. I love the smell of the rain (whether it hasn't rained yet or whether it's currently raining). In this moment and likely because I'd say that I'm finally getting settled into living in a new city and state I feel good about the decision I made to move here. I can say that leaving San Antonio in particular and Texas as a whole was the healthiest decision I've ever made for myself (for many reasons). And I honestly wish that there could be a requirement for everyone in the world to move to a different city and state than where he or she's actually from. Because moving to a totally new place challenges people in ways that are big and small, anticipated and unanticipated. For example I'm doing more things in the kitchen now that I'm really on my own and don't have an assistant to help me with anything. I'm sure that I could find out whether my insurance company has anything like I'd had in San Antonio where a person could receive an assistant to help him or her with whatever he or she needs help with. But I've been healthy long enough now that I'm learning that I just have to trust myself and trust the fact that I can learn how to do household things that I've felt reluctant to do in the past or that I've felt like I've needed someone's help with for one reason or another. It was really easy for me to have an assistant when I was in San Antonio because for the majority of the time that I'd lived in that particular city I was horribly sick. So now that I've been healthy for over a year and now that this year has been full of changes, I may as well continue the awesome cycle of doing things that I never thought I'd be able to do. Because I'm pretty sure that the more things I discover I can actually do myself, the better I'll feel over all and the more empowered I'll be. There's nothing better than that!!